Provincetown Artist Registry, Provincetown, Cape Cod, Massachusetts, New England

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Gerald Mocarsky

Provincetown Artist Registry

Men Who Dance With Men:
I can remember the first time I saw men dancing together. Watching TV, alone on a Thursday night, I am twelve years old and it is well past my bedtime. We are reporting on a significant rise in the homosexual population residing in the San Fransisco Bay area. These men identify themselves as having sexual relations with other men. My heart began pounding, (will someone walk into the room, see this report and realize I am one of those homosexuals.) The television flashes an image of a crowded dance floor. Shirtless, sweaty men dance pressing against each other. I recall the uneasiness that stirred deep inside of me. (Men are just not supposed to dance together!) At that moment I made an instant decision; I may one day move to the west coast but I would never dance with another man.

Today I see that self-hatred was the basis for this reaction. It wasn't the dancing I rejected but my own homosexuality. In the years that followed I did find my way to one of the gay meccaís, developed honest relationships, buried far too many friends and danced with men pretending it felt right until it truly did. I realized shortly after beginning this project that my interest was not exclusively with male dance partners and their sexual orientation but also with the love and acceptance that is expressed with every movement and touch. The dancers did not have to be gay to be included in this project. Sexual orientation became irrelevant, as I realized it was their openness that I was responding to. Never before have I had such a hope for unity.

Provincetown Artist Registry

In My Bed Series:
I began the photographic series, "In My Bed", over a decade ago while dealing with a prolonged bought of depression. The place I seemingly lost all desire to leave, my bed, would become the stage for this exploration. Deciding to abandon this space as a bedroom, I began creating installations to represent my emotional and physical states. Placing my camera on a tripod allowed me a nonjudgmental witness. As my physical being and state of mind transformed, I continued to examine my existence in this extremely revealing setting.

Represented by Lyman-Eyer Gallery, 432 Commercial Street, Provincetown, MA 02657, tel. 508-487-3937, www.lymaneyerart.com